damn, i swear- i wanna wake up and not feel anxiety for once, it's been messing with me since like what-? i turned frickin 15? it fricking hurts, it really does, and i hate it so much. I wanna be able to wake up a good morning for once, bUT nOPE anxiety hits me up with its juicy words like.
"they're only talking to u bcuz they feel pity"
"they hate u, they just talk to u to pass free time"
"they're saying ur not a bother. But you are, they're just lying to u to make u feel better"
"they say they love u? they're lying"
i swear to god- its always th e same- it's one of the reasons why i dont hit up my friends- bcuz i'm scared of bothering them and they'd eventually leave me like everyone did, i forced myself to think its just a bunch of irrational crap, but my anxiety iS oFF the charts, every lil problem i get or feel, turns into a GiAnT aSS mESS i sweAr- i keep convincing myself that it's my fault that i'm annoying- and it mcfrickin hurts, i have to carry this giant ass anxiety feeling all day too, anD iT sUCKS oMG- sajnfkdnsj ty f or taking the time t o read my bs- ty for 63 fans btw- i appreciate it- <3 i'm s orry for the sudden v ent- i can't open up on any other social media.